You know what your brain looks like on drugs. This is what your heart looks like on work: My FitBit is so proud of how I do forty-five minutes of exercise a day. Too bad it's just my heart racing. The orange peak is how I start my work day. I didn't realize I barely … Continue reading It’s been a minute (random craps #785)
Tag: anxiety
Random craps #450.
Who knows what number in the series it actually is. Or if there even is a series. I don't remember the last time I was able to scrape together a fictional story of any kind. Maybe the "untitled" thing that I dug up and posted a few weeks ago--yet even then I couldn't come up … Continue reading Random craps #450.
A friend in need… needs a friend, indeed.
One of my many regrets in life is not being a better friend to others when I was growing up. I think of people I picked on and worry about what lasting damage I did; of certain people I ditched for what I thought was better; of people I lost contact with out of lack … Continue reading A friend in need… needs a friend, indeed.
Ugh… family and wedding drama.
Just a quick late-night follow-up rant to this one about family drama... Please don't feel compelled to comment--it's just the same old, same from me--you don't need to humor me. There is some poor soul out there, I know it, who's in the middle of family drama and maybe they'll benefit from seeing they're not … Continue reading Ugh… family and wedding drama.
Guys, make me feel better.
I generally don't talk about my family or loved ones out of respect for them because they don't know about this blog or aren't allowed to read it if they do. So I'll be as vague as I can, though I must add some details. I know estrangements happen in every family. My sister and … Continue reading Guys, make me feel better.
Just wanna say hi
Haven't been the most prolific blogger as of late, so I thought, why don't I pop in, say hi, and get back in the game? So, hi. Sometimes I feel embarrassed about posting because I don't want people to get annoyed with an email or notification. In fact, I'm sitting here right now wondering if … Continue reading Just wanna say hi
Three days before Christmas
Just a self-indulgent blogger life ramble post, comments disabled so you can feel free to skip. I have nothing left to give, I'm bled dry, I can do nothing but whine. I mean this in the gentlest way possible but I don't want your sympathy, I'm no more important than a whoopee cushion... A whoopee … Continue reading Three days before Christmas
We’re overdue for a retail rant!
Howdy! If you're sick of all the Thanksgiving GIF's, enjoy a commercial break by reading a rant from a retail worker during one of the most hellish weeks of the year! It's gonna get ugly. First, can't really report any good news on my editing project. During this time of year in retail, pretty much … Continue reading We’re overdue for a retail rant!
Mortality lingers.
The talented blogger known as "Jewish Young Professional" (not a dating site) recently wrote about a turning point in her life when her grandfather passed away. It caught my attention and I was moved by it because the death of a grandparent was such a turning point for me as well. So I thought, why … Continue reading Mortality lingers.
Be still, my pounding, leaping, A-fib heart (November Editing Project)
As I go along, I've realized there are two components to my editing: the editing of the work and the editing of my mindset. At first I was going to log the needed changes, but I quickly saw that that would be a novel unto itself. To sum up what I've done so far—my first … Continue reading Be still, my pounding, leaping, A-fib heart (November Editing Project)
Three Years Ago Today
Early September is a good time of year to think about birthdays and deaths. The beautiful summer begins to show subtle hints of the coming end. Are there more beautiful skies than in September? Was there a more beautiful day than September 11, 2001? But the weather provided no protection against tragedy. I know someone … Continue reading Three Years Ago Today
This is not the right way to get through life.
A pathetic self-centered rant. If you’re smart, you’ll stay the hell away. “We’ll get through it, Hetty, we’ll get through it.” Julie hangs her head to the desk and shakes it in the most unconvincing way you’ve ever seen in your life. Well, guess what, Julie, it’s been about nine or ten months and there’s … Continue reading This is not the right way to get through life.
The most disturbing part of OCD no one ever tells you about.
People always call themselves “OCD” because they like things neat or wash their hands a lot. That isn’t OCD. Actual obsessive-compulsive disorder is debilitating compulsion to perform rituals beyond any normal behavior. People also forget that OCD includes thoughts—i.e. obsessions. A person can have one or both of them. I don’t really have compulsions, but … Continue reading The most disturbing part of OCD no one ever tells you about.
Test results…and a little challenge to you.
A couple of weeks ago, I had an ambulatory EEG to determine if my periods of spacing out and losing awareness are epileptic in nature. Out of three possible outcomes—normal, epileptic, or something really bad, the results were option 1: the test was fine. It may sound odd, but that wasn’t really my desired outcome. … Continue reading Test results…and a little challenge to you.
Waiting for test results ramble
Just a ramble. Diary crap. Proceed at your own risk. Halloween couldn’t be a better time for a 72-hr ambulatory EEG. Of the three people who dared to ask me why I had a scarf tied around my head, one thought I was supposed to be Grace Kelly, another thought I converted to a different … Continue reading Waiting for test results ramble
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